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bladeinthecrowd
Apr. 17th, 2008 12:24 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
blindingtrustGod I don't understand men at all.
And what's sad? I think I'm in love with him. But our lives are far too different. I keep telling myself that. But my blasted heart won't listen to what my mind knows.
It should hurt me so much more than it does. It's like shoving my hand in an open fire and not getting burned. I don't understand myself anymore. I wanted to forget about men and just work on my studies but I can't forget him. I feel like I might freeze if I don't spend some time with him.
But we're far too different. I'm just going to end up getting hurt.
I think I’ll keep up with this anyways. I think it’s too late to just walk away from him. It would be selfish of me to. God only knows how much I don’t want to hurt him. And I’m not even very religious.
And what's sad? I think I'm in love with him. But our lives are far too different. I keep telling myself that. But my blasted heart won't listen to what my mind knows.
It should hurt me so much more than it does. It's like shoving my hand in an open fire and not getting burned. I don't understand myself anymore. I wanted to forget about men and just work on my studies but I can't forget him. I feel like I might freeze if I don't spend some time with him.
But we're far too different. I'm just going to end up getting hurt.
I think I’ll keep up with this anyways. I think it’s too late to just walk away from him. It would be selfish of me to. God only knows how much I don’t want to hurt him. And I’m not even very religious.
